The last something that meant anything.

2011-09-22T13:49:00.001+08:00

RUSTY BLOG. :(

GRRR.

2011-06-26T00:53:00.004+08:00

Ohman, how long have I not updated this rusty blog.

Have been good this whole year, not to the extent of great.

Learnt quite a bit from my regrets, from my mistakes or even my happiness.

Sadly, i'm still repeating some regrets and mistakes. When can I not repeat those histories.

Have been thinking a lot lately, I need guidances, advises and directions.

But I've improved quite a bit, not many of those forceful smiles and laughters any more.

Thank God for the improvements in my results despite all the dumb activities I got myself into.

Trying to be something won't bring me any where. seriously.

Perhaps not being able to join those activities anymore was God's will; Firstly, I was out of reach from most of my friends. Secondly, it's too much for me. Too much pressure and stress. Thirdly, I can be closer to my family as well as Godly family now :)

Just felt that this is God's will, no sadness no regrets.

It's time to think it through wisely.

Charlene tan is back!

I miss her many many. Can't make it for the-outing-oh-so-finally with her and the girls :(

Sigh, I really want to! It's been SO LONG since i met them. Am I losing everyone?

Why do I feel that way!

Left side is breaking my heart while I'm breaking theirs on the right. Okay, I don't know if this makes sense.

:'( What a bad day.

Blessed year ahead.

2011-02-05T02:29:00.004+08:00

HAPPY CNY EVERYONE!
May there be peace, joy, mercy and abundant grace this year :)

Need to start doing my work so that I can go out!
haha, all the missed lectures and tutorials. hohoho!

TOOTIE. <3

All I gave you was goodbye.

2011-01-09T01:22:00.008+08:00

SWEET.

My arms, my legs, my back, in fact my whole body is aching like fish!
argh. No amper rest for my muscles to recover. I can't differentiate a swell from a muscle now (lame IKR!).

This week
Monday - Netball IHG (FTW!), Cheer 8 - 1am.
Tues - Cheer 8 - 1am.
Wed - Cheer 8 - 1am
Thurs - Cheer 8 - 1am
Friday - Track training.

Tues and thurs supposed to have DB, but my arms are dying.
Super painful :( Went for training ytd and today instead. My stamina drop a lot!
YAO ZU!

Isaac came to my school and had lunch on wed. How nice!
Whenever someone visits me in school, I will feel the warmth and joy because I know my school is crazily far and yet they are willing to travel this distance just to get to me! Thanks tingxin, ibrahim and isaac! :) I'm seriously leaving in boonlay-sia. Sometimes there's even no reception or internet access here.

Will be a crazier week starting from tomorrow.
I know I can do it, I'm half-way there!
HO is coming, I can do it! I won't cry anymore, I won't give up!

I need to find THE dress if not I'm really dead. Ibrahim will also be dead! :(
I'm looking forward to DB camp and 16th JAN! OMG, excited!!!!!!!

Do things really happen for a reason?

2010-12-31T02:45:00.003+08:00

Am I making the right choice?
I don't know if I will regret, but at the same time wanting to give all these a chance.
I'm contented with the present, but I'm really scared to look into the future because I don't see ...

I don't see myself.

I'm just fine being trapped if it's with you

2010-11-29T01:57:00.005+08:00

I want to survive this week, next week and the following week.
Make them a productive one :)
Just these 3 weeks, YAO ZU!
I'm already thinking of what I wanna do after exams, oh man!
FOCUS!
So many things to think about, to worry about and to be happy about.

I want you to know you're still important to me and I can't wait to see you!
Hope by then, you won't be unhappy with me anymore. :(
I know that although I can't be there for you, I pray that God will see your heart, bring you through these painful ordeal and put everything together according to His will.

2010-11-23T18:54:00.003+08:00

I don't mind if you don't appreciate any of my encouragement or 'cheer-up' statements,
at least let me know if you want me to be there for you. (I can lend you a pair of listening ears if you are willing to share with me.)
I don't know what's wrong. I want to try to help you in every way. I want to collect the racepack with you like what we've planned, but my race ended super late, I also forgot about the letter thing. It's not that I'm telling you last minute, but I only knew about it last minute too. You seem pissed in everything I'm doing and saying.
I know you're going through a rough time and won't blame you for all those lousy moods and pissed-off tone. I really want to talk to you badly. I hope you're fine and please stay strong girl!

I'm sorry, C. Love you always.

I know I can't in the end.

2010-11-16T18:41:00.001+08:00

ほんとにごめなさい

:(

your eyes are all that keep me going.

2010-11-10T01:46:00.003+08:00

ARGH.
I feel that as I'm trying my best to train hard everyday, my freaking body is failing me.
badly.

I'm so irritated with myself for not being able to stay strong, stronger.

One out of the many

2010-10-21T01:12:00.003+08:00

Time check : 1.50am

Roomie and I studied the whole day today :)
Completed all tutorials except computing and physics. What a sense of achievement!
Should be sleeping soon, need to wake up in 4 hours time!
Having db mixed training tomorrow, purely sea training! Can't wait!
I need to give my leg a break, how I wish there's a escalator/lift to my room in hall awww.
I think I can change from being superwoman to ultrawoman soon. argh.

Thanks for the doughnuts and my all-time favourite banana crumble, wm!
Thanks for the dinners, Al!
we will definitely get fatter. Ah.

where's my missing puzzle piece?

You mean the world to me but you'll never know.

2010-10-11T04:23:00.001+08:00

Time check: 4.25am
yawns.

Hope I can survive the week :)

Not good enough.

2010-10-05T00:19:00.003+08:00

Can't believe I didn't check my email during the weekends when I always do.
And guess what! I didn't know there's CA1 for computing yesterday.
But thank God. It's as though He heard our 'AH' and prayers, and dropped a gift from heaven.
Confirm pass this time! Computing CA1 cleared! haha.
Will promise to study hard for computing! Escape this time round doesn't mean I can escape the next time.

No more CA1 this week right? Don't give me another heart attack! haha.

Yay, able to go for db on both tues and thurs. No clashes this week! :)
I need someone to guild me on track intervals. I seriously have no clue about it!

BYE.
where'd you go.

time to put a fullstop to this.

2010-09-22T01:25:00.005+08:00

Ah. I hate this moment when everything is not going that right.
Fell down 2 days ago and the stinging feeling is still there. Worst part is my arm kept hitting the lecture table directly on my wound. It's never going to heal :(
Feel super unwell, feverish plus my throat is killing me. Didn't go for CP! They learnt to sit upright on the canoe straight after capsizing. I think I will learn to drown at the next training!

There's hope for Physics Econs Computing right right right?

2010-08-30T22:36:00.005+08:00

2nd night staying far away from home. Awww.

The truth is I have yet to feel the pinch of having my family staying at the other end of the country while I'm here.
I wonder what my bro meant when he said I will feel homesick for the 1st few months, like how he felt when he was in BMT. lol. Perhaps I will really get that feeling next week when school starts.

It's 1045pm and I'm actually in my room alone! It's not really that bad. I like the silence you know - the peace. hahaha! mum dad came to pass me things and dinner just now. How sweet right! :) Aww. Love them ttm! oppps.

I'm craving for Udders' ice-cream!
Anyone can bring me there? :D

Holding back.

2010-08-01T02:16:00.004+08:00

Why am I feeling this way - uneasy.
I really want to but I know I shouldn't.
It's not that I'm ~~AS.~~ :(

My exam was brain-draining! :(
It was so difficult that I couldn't finish a section :(
Bad-bye to my 15 marks!

I need my happy pill! I need my banana crumble from Cedele!
:)

2010-07-23T01:59:00.010+08:00

Charlene Tan left me in S'pore again!
I'm just a video-call away from you k :)

Just came back from Insinyur'10 2 weeks ago! :)
It was totally awesome (ahem).
I miss the first few games at Changi Beach.
I miss the stations & campfire at Sentosa. (Ps. I really missed the part where they lighted up the fire. haha, edwin too. all thanks to my feet. tsk.)
We spent the whole day there from 830am to 10pm? chao ta! :D
I miss the Amazing Race! Like it ttm because I ran a lot. Lost weight :)
I miss the close bonding in my og!
I miss that night where we learnt the creative cheer together. Although we didn't win, but it was the process of doing it well that bonded us :)
I miss the times when we played '几人, 几人' and we drew our favourite long hairy caterpillar on the seniors while they drew 'Great wall of china' hahaha! (I don't know the chinese name!)
I miss those late nights playing 'Murderer with nurse', 'dai di', 'Water parade' etc.
I miss blowing my hair which always made diudiu and lyo can't sleep haha!
I miss laughing with laopo at the snores we always hear at night.
I miss Fright Night (totally awesome).
I miss Night games. Although we were blindfolded for 6 hours, we got really dirty with all the sauces, we tug-of-war with a tree instead, and we had to fall backwards from high level which I hated it, I still think it's fun! :D
I miss SP night though, despite having to go up the stage to play charades because someone's name was being called. haha! Funny thing was we won! But I feel that I'm a poor guesser. Tsk.
I miss receiving roses now! The first 2 and also the last 2. OMG! I sound so emo, lol! But thanks SP and my og guys! :)

I miss the camp!

I'm regretting not signing up for sports camp now.
But come to think of it, how to go for the camp when I need to sing and drive?
Consoling myself! haha. Ohwells. :(

Anyway, my og had BBQ and 007..Bang was superb! Some of us went for Kbox session too! Now we know who can sing! :D

Not to forget, I met up with Niki on wednesday !
Ohmytian, she totally sound like an angmoh now. haha!
I'm so so so happy to see her once again!
Went to her house at orchard for awhile before visiting my cousin.
Her house has got a cool clock where 1,2,3,4,5,...11,12 were arranged in an opposite direction to our usual clock. LOL. :D

Buhbye!

Faith comes by hearing, hearing the Word of God.

2010-07-01T00:45:00.002+08:00

When will I see you two again!
It all depends on A that slowpoke.

For the past few days, I have been visiting my cousin with my parents.
I thank God for unity.
I thank God for my cousin's recovery in advance.
I thank God for his wife who is a christian.
I thank God for being merciful and faithful in answering prayers.
I thank God for being patient towards believers and those who does not know You.
I thank God for who You are and who is to come.

I pray for the joy of the Lord to be with his family.
I pray for strength, comfort and hope to be among them.
I pray for soft grounds and an open heaven for me to preach the word to my relatives.
I pray for the power of healing to be upon my cousin for You are Jehovah Rapha (The Lord who heals).
I pray for open hearts.
I pray for the Word of Wisdom.
Most importantly, I pray for Your presence and Spirit to be with him.

As you said in Your word,

Psalms 103: 1-4 "Bless the LORD, O my soul; And all that is within me, bless His holy name! Bless the LORD, O my soul, And forget not all His benefits: Who forgives all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases, Who redeems your life from destruction, Who crowns you with loving-kindness and tender mercies ..."

2010-06-19T23:59:00.002+08:00

Just went for CHURCH CAMP 2010 last week! 14th - 17th June!
It was fun and great! The company, the hotel and the food were good!

My 2 girls and I gotten a special room which is found on the ladies floor (12th floor). It is seriously called ladies floor written beside the no. 12 button. haha! But don't be fool, there were guys staying the same level as us.
It was bigger and the whole room was painted purple! Very nice :)
We have good neighbours (Wilbert, PH etc) too who traded with us a pair of slippers for a guitar! HEH! tsk.
I had wonderful eating partners who ate 4 rounds a meal with me - Cheryl lek and Cherilyn.

Thistle Hotel

The view from our room.

Our hotel. The radical cherilyn and sam :)

Classic.

My beloved cell leader - Tingxin.

My room-mates!

My eating partners.

Half 2.4

ZONE 2.

Really miss all the late nights we had together to play B game and eat burgers.
Miss those mornings where I would hear our neighbours having praise and worship. "Better is one day in Your courts, better is one day in Your house, ... than thousand elsewhere."

Ohwells, good memories remain with us while life moves on.

<3

2010-06-06T23:56:00.003+08:00

Before it reaches 12am,

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY, SHREK !

Because someone could not smile properly just now, I took a super unglam picture. I'm left with no picture of this not-green-shrek.
Anyway, hope you did enjoy your day! :)
We ate at a korean restaurant, what's with korean! HAHA!
It was not too bad, just too much meat :( I deserve to put on weight man!
Ohhh, they served watermelons for dessert. Heart-shaped! CUTE. :D

Then throughout the dinner, I have been looking at this plate of white coin-shaped things. When I asked jw, he lied to me that they were sweeets! tsk.
In the end, it's not but something very COOL! Watch this.

(Please ignore the voice! haha.)

They were actually hand-wipes! Perhaps many of you may have seen it, but it's my first time! =p So I was really fascinated just now! But ts, wj and jw quickly popped theirs in the water and deliberately covered them so to prevent me from taking video! Awww. Irritating!

Ohwells, it's a rather good invention! Save space but waste water :X

I'm excited tomorrow! Able to touch the steering wheel and then go for zone camp night service! :):) May God's presence be among us!

Dreams.

2010-06-05T13:39:00.003+08:00

Slept for 12 hours!
A lot better now, but my head is still spinning slightly!
Within this 12 hours, I dreamt about many things. One of which is ___.

To ___ :
I confronted you in my dream with many people around us.
I finally gather all my courage and told you the reasons why for the whole year, I didn't bothered talking to you much or even wanting to study with you.
I seriously do not see the reason why there would be a competition between us when I didn't even know about it or settle on it, up till today.
In the dream, my blood was really boiling and my tears were rolling down my cheeks. You were my good friend, someone I thought I can trust. But till then, my trust for you was broken.
Although it was a dream, I felt a sense of relieve that I could tell you my feelings face to face.
I felt that God wants me to let go and not look back at the past. Forgive is the word.

I feel like playing monopoly deal!
Wait till I'm well :(

2010-06-04T23:34:00.003+08:00

We are the reason that He gave His life.
We are the reason that He suffered and died.
To a world that was lost, He gave all He could give.
To show us the reason to live.

By His strips I am healed, in the name of Jesus!

Wanted to do many things these few days.
- Swimming at Char's place 2 days ago.
- Go for zone camp PM yesterday.
- Play pool and lepak with St. Clar today.
- Running with Chow and his cell mates tomorrow.

:( I want to lose weight, in fact LOTS of weight!

CHARLENE TAN IS BACK, yay :)
Meeting the girls on wed. WED IS A BIG DAY.
I wish I won't have to see these people anymore - simon, idris, daniel and andrew.
Not to forget, alex yeo! Free meal and lim teh session! :]

Goodnight!

2010-05-28T00:29:00.003+08:00

Have been reading 1 Samuel, it's interesting!
Especially David and Goliath, God chooses David etc.

1 Samuel 16:6-10 "So it was, when they came, that he looked at Eliab and said, “Surely the Lord’s anointed is before Him.” But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look at his appearance or at the height of his stature, because I have refused him. For the Lord does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”... ...

GREAT DAY YESTERDAY :)

I accomplished most of the things I wanted to do.

✔ Email Charlene.
✔ Vacuum and Mop the floor.
✔ Check out my Havaianas slipper size.

Thought that I should help my mum with the house chores to lessen her burden :)

✔ I also bought some things but cannot be revealed. In case that person reads this post.

Before I went to meet my dad and bro for desserts, I bought a pair of heels from ALDO.
I LOVE IT :D hees. It's comfortable. Should be my last pair because it costs my mum a BOMB.

Gonna meet the peeps for cycling/blading and then for bowling! Can't wait :]

A roller-coaster ride.

2010-05-23T00:51:00.004+08:00

I should be happy, but instead I'm sad.
I suddenly feel I'm at a crossroad.
I have got this feeling like it is not going to work out when this starts.
I feel that I don't know what I want in life all of a sudden.
I feel a strong burden in my heart.
I don't want to do something, knowing I will not make it to the end.
I don't just want to start well, I want to end well knowing that I have worked hard.
Why don't I feel the peace and joy that I should be having in me.
Why don't I feel assured of my future all of the sudden.
I love having friends around me.
I would love to have many girlfriends moving with me and giving one another helping hands.
I don't say I don't like guy friends, deep down in my heart I wish for more girls around so to have heart-to-heart talks ..

I'm tearing .. how fantastic.
It shouldn't be this way.
Have Your way in me and my life, Lord.

I have this feeling of leaving this country. why Oh why.

Let us adore Him

2010-05-17T00:34:00.002+08:00

'But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.'

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
You are worthy of all praise

On the Go

2010-05-15T23:56:00.003+08:00

'For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.'
2 Timothy 1:7.

I AM DETERMINED TO RUN TOMORROW!

I hope I am able to wake up. :(
I need to wake up! I need to lose those fats and calories!

I'm so impacted by what tx preached today :)
'When God gives you a burden to pray, He obviously intends to give you an answer to it.'

GOODNIGHT.
ciaos!

There is more to life.

2010-05-13T20:39:00.003+08:00

"Come to Me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28

I think I have wasted this week apart from the steering wheel and all the meet-ups!
I need to make at least friday which is tomorrow a productive day!

Things to be done:
- Running. (I already thought of the route I want to cover. haha)
- Do some memorizing and writing.
- Go Olives, read finish tx's book.
- Start a new book.

Hopefully I get all 4 done tomorrow! :) & not be so lazy.

Anyway, went for TP for lunch yesterday. It's so cheap and yummmy!
I ate a plate that consists of a chicken cutlet, baked beans, coleslaw, fries and spaghetti, and not to forget a bowl of mushroom soup, it only costs 5 bucks in total! I couldn't even finish it awww.
Waste food to the max!

Ibra is coming out this weekend, so there's somebody I can run with now!
Charlene is coming back this june! YAY, someone to suntan and swim with me now!
Awww. I miss that woman!

Ciaoz.

God of miracles.

2010-05-12T22:20:00.008+08:00

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge .." Proverbs 1:7

Sometimes the Holy Spirit just need to be there to give you a nudge in your heart as a wake-up call in your 'not-so-right' life!
I don't want to be complacent. I don't want to remain at where I am at now. I want to move to a higher level. I want to tune in to the Holy spirit more. I want to listen to His voice clearer. I want to walk in His godly ways. I want to know about His word (the Bible) more. I want to learn to serve. I want to love God more. I want to love people more.

Thinking of all that I have attained in life, there's only 1 thing I would say - by God's grace, I can be who I am today. You may be thinking in your mind, stop all this spiritual thing. Nah, it's because you see Christianity as a religion, but to me it is a relationship with God. You may see some christians behaving inappropriately and think what so big deal about being a christian. But some can just be christian by name and have yet to experience a true relationship with Jesus. And hello? We ain't perfect that's why we need Jesus to lead all of us to perfection. Once you know His love by dying on the cross for you, you will know of what I am trying to say here. :)

I really need to run soon, gaining a lot of calories! :C

2010-05-01T23:09:00.005+08:00

I'm so done with SAT. All I can say is that perhaps God has already planned my future and I just need to stop looking everywhere for things which can improve my grades so to probably give me a ray of hope for my future.

I seriously don't get what my dad is thinking nowadays. I'm getting so annoyed and emotional, which should not be the case. I sense that whatever is happening now seems inappropriate. I feel that there is so much more in a relationship. I'm not saying I'm not in good terms with my dad, but it's regarding another matter. Both ought to be moving together and not just pulling one another away from dreams they want to pursue. The other party should not be feeling that you're a chore or burden to him/her. I shall not keep going on with this, not in the position to and it's just a frustration in me. We shall see what's the outcome like.

Also, I feel so bad not sending her any gift. I know I won't be able to because of what's revolving around me for the past few weeks. I felt impatient, uptight, whatever. So sorry! :(

I care.

2010-04-04T23:37:00.008+08:00

Met up with Esther on thurs. It has been so long since I saw her. Aww, missed her totally! :)
My flu got worst for the the rest of the day.
Someone should be coming to my rescue with a packet of tissue paper, but no! That person forgot to bring it as well! Bought a packet in the end.

M: There are heart-shaped leaves in S'pore right?
S: I think so.
M: Got right?
S: Actually not really heart-shape la, it's like a shape of a heart.
M: HUH? *stunts*
HAHAHAAHAHHAHA. couldn't stop laughing! :X

Class gathering @ Brewerkz. It was great, but too little photos! I think majority of the photos has only yj and I. :D

classic.

M: eh you sure cannot be seen in the photo lo.
W: IA!
S: then you're wrong. (something like that.)
The whole thing was totally funny :)

I need to start running and lose fats!
I hope the 7pm call thing is still on.

you know what! I am totally looking forward to Sat!

Charlene tan, you're missed!

BYE.

Grateful.

2010-03-19T23:52:00.004+08:00

I need to stop doing things last minute.
I hate doing things last minute.
I did so many mistakes today! I can't change it now.
This is so frustrating! I mean if it's by God's will I get it, so be it.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Jiu Wo!

Today is officially my first time taking cab alone!
I don't like it because I have set a goal for myself to not take cab unless the situation involves life and death.
& now what. I guess now my goal is not met! :(
Plus, the cab fare was 9bucks! So much for wanting to save money :/
For the next few days, I'm cutting down on my intake and expenses!

Anyway, I would like to thank my mum and bro for helping me with things today!
For bro, thanks for rushing back home for me despite having other plans already.
For mum, thanks for helping me print things and going an extra mile for me. I think you're doing my things more than working. So sorry :(
Love you two! :)

Can't wait for cellgroup tomorrow!

Need to study now!
Buhbye!

Be someone I can count on.

2010-03-12T01:10:00.007+08:00

A level results are out!
It's quite okay. thank God for the grades because deep in my heart I know that i didn't put in much effort in J1 and started bucking up when i was in J2.
The result you get depends on the amount of effort you put in.
God is good; indeed He is good.

Ate with jw and i think i wasted his time cause i didn't want to eat till i could get the ear stick into my ear hole. I think it's way too long since i wore any ear-rings. So painful and annoying! :/
But in the end I just ate, couldn't take it any more. HAHAA.

& I found a few more old pictures.

Found this in lav's previous blog. Aww, i miss my ex-cells 2.2 and 2.5!

Where are you people? :'(
Especially J. I will listen to her and reply her msges ...everything, if I knew things would turn out this way. Hais.

I went to facilitate at a particular school today and I was reminded of someone.
I don't know where is he, what is he up to, how is he doing.
All I could think of is if there is another chance, I will want to bring him back.
I've missed a chance. I just stood there and did nothing but just stared even when I was evangelizing at that point of time.
Why. Double sigh.

As for you, are you having pms? I'm actually confused by what you're starting to do now.
which is Again.

2010-02-22T01:32:00.000+08:00

Sunday

Oh happy day, happy day.

Went jogging with ibra at 10am instead of 9am, it was so warm :(
After which hurried home to prepare for church.
When i was one stop before 201, jw called and asked if i wanted to take his cab.
Praise the Lord! Cause i know if i didn't alight the bus and take his cab, i will be late to meet Nat. :):)

Guess what i did after service?
I washed the girl's toilet together with my cellgroup members in church! OMG. It was super duper double FUN!
First we took off our shoes and folded up our jeans. Then we took the brush, soap and water hose and wash! :X
My parents will be thinking if only i can put this into practice at home :D

Off for steamboat the 3rd time. Another one on wed!
FAT FAT FAT.
So i need to BURN BURN BURN.
But how can i do it besides running? :/

Last Friday BBQ's pics :)

2010-02-19T01:33:00.005+08:00

I miss .

my hiking and jogging partners.

my lovely girls.

my cousins.

.
Korea.

Those memories. (:

Happy CNY! :D

Not too late right haha!
3weeks to getting of my results. omg!
Anyway, my bedroom is spacious now with most of the things thrown away. Like my secondary school books, etc. HAHA. seriously, they were occupying my room for 2 years and now it's gone. yay.

I love reading books nowadays :)
I'm going to hold the steering wheel even before i go for my theory test. This is great :D

C: he was surprised you said hi to him
C: i asked him why and i was shocked by his reply.
C: guess why.
Me: erm cause i don't talk to him that much in class last time?
C: No. he said cause you give him that 'princess' feel.

HAHAHAHA. tsk.
;)

People asked me why will we have a bbq back in school when we can have it elsewhere. Well, i don't know man.

~~YOU MUST COME.~~

2010-01-12T01:44:00.005+08:00

RUSTY BLOG.!

Have been going out a lot lately.
Went cycling with ona, yj, weiming and ibra in the rain! Met clarence at KFC and tiffany hengtiong and kenny too! So coincidental, but it's nice seeing tiffany! I think she became prettier!
Went out with char and selena last week and bought 2 dresses as well as job hunting.
Tom N Toms outlet can be found at fareast! omg :D gonna go there next time!
Went sentosa with the girls and was 'harassed' by deprived army guys. Scary. But overall, it was quite okay. The sun was really scorching hot! :D loves.
Watched avatar with I, watched SH with char and watched 4th kind with yj bex joel ibra!

See this, it's really entertaining!! :D

Person 1: No leh. Go orchard there then will be more ex.
The rest: Huh? Whr got. The ezlink deduct according to the stations travelled.
Person 1: No la. Not whether the place popular meh? So go orchard thr would hv to pay more.
Person 2: Then u go buangkok thr got no one so it's free? hahahahahahah

LOL!!! OMGG!!!!!

Person 3: Can't la. Ltr we walk back comfirm will get lost.
Person 4: hhahahaha. How can anyone get lost in Singapore. At most, we can follow the mrt tracks.
Person 3: Mrt tracks? Whr gt? Dhoby tracks underground. How to walk back? Might as well take mrt.
Person 4: hahahahahah*can't stop laughing one*

- by ibrahim. Shall not say out names hohoho!

Went to run with ibra at school 3 days ago, after which bathed and he left for prayers.
So sat at the canteen to read and fell aslp shortly. Someone woke me up by spraying droplets of water on my face, thanks kamhim! tsktsktsk.
Then went to play pool, yj and joel PS! won him 3games :D HAHAHAH! (Y)

Today went running then go yj's house play wii!
Really retarded! especially tennis and baseball! haha.
Walked with ibra till compass point, i really feel foreign there and then.
Laughed super a lot, i think it could actually substitute doing crunches :)
ohya, after that got the book and 'lunch' from ibra then went home. seriously tired.
I think i walked more than i ran la. DIE.

Gonna do some housework tomorrow, i can't wait for thurs!!!!! heeS.

2009-12-14T12:51:00.005+08:00

Some overdue pictures!

Bro's Specialist Graduation Ceremony! :)

So cool lah, especially that guy who was the last to receive some award :D
shall not reveal any names out haha!
erm the food was rather nice after the whole thing.
Didn't know jerry was there cooolzxz!

Gonna meet estie in an hours' time! Can't wait to see her and to eat at eighteen chefs!
heees. It has been so long since i saw her, besides the time she ran to hug me. :D

ohh! & charlene is in m'sia now! awwww.
& someone is also coming back from japan, but i don't know when )):
hopefully can see that person at the airport tomorrow!

TC.

2009-12-08T23:59:00.015+08:00

PROM NIGHT @ Carlton Hotel :) 5th Dec '09!
A night I will never forget.

Will let the pictures do the talking.

Congrats Sam and Aleem :D

(my favourite pic :D)

Catwalking, preparing to throw the flower from I's blazer pocket :)

yunjia :]

Keith and Dudley :]

Ibrahim :]

Christine and Magenta :]

Another lovely prom king and queen :]
Edwin and Joanna!

Ivan :]

beloved Charlene :]
thanks for everything love.

loves.

:]

William John :]

Xiying :]

Aaron :]:]
I know i didn't sing well. thanks for those words and the encouragement!

Angeline :]

Shush and Jiafeng :]

Victor :]

Joshua Aaron :]

Soon hock :]

Calvin :]

Cappi :]

BEX :]

Chan Tak Kin :]

Nian Deng :]

Class guys :]

Amanda! :]

Ona :]

my part-time physic teachers :] thanks!

Christopher :]

Shawn Tiang Song en! :]

The food was rather okay, not that bad.
Didn't eat much cause seriously no appetite. haha! Every now and then needed to go back stage.
After prom, the 3 of us followed Ivan and company to Supper Club. Saw shumei! Okay, at least i saw someone familiar :) Didn't drink, just dance and all. It's really crazy dancing with high heels. My legs were like breaking, charlene's legs too. HAHA!

you've been a great prom partner :)
still wondering when can I listen to the full song of Three Cheers For Five Years on drums played by you.
Hees.

2009-12-03T23:31:00.005+08:00

I'm Happy :) are you ?

Woke up late today! was supposed to go running at 8am with ibrahim and TYJ! But i woke up at 845am! SORRRY! I was not only late for running but was supposed to be there early so to surprise fiona!
Fortunately i still made it on time to surprise her from the back :) hope she likes it!
Met up with I to go to J's house. Stayed there till 3plus before we left.

lonely boat..
lonely voice..
LOL! (inside joke)

Feeling rather scared yet excited now. haha!! Plus, I bought my heels already! It's pretty to me la HEES. :) Not that high so I don't have to worry. :D

Gonna meet fiona and siokping for breakfast before we go collect the race pack tomorrow. BUT before that, i have to go back school to clear my locker ): I forgot laaaaaaaa HAHAHA. tomorrow last day! :/

Would you really carry me? :D wahahaha! muahaahah!

2009-12-01T01:28:00.002+08:00

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!
TO BE EXACT - A LEVELS ARE OVER :D

Now that i'm so free, i'm able to do some things which i wanted to do for a long time :)
somehow i feel lost. We used to study most of the time, now that we're free, we don't know how to use this time. Perhaps just wasting it away.

ohya! This whole week is rather packed, happy happy :)
wednesday - going back school to run and for some stuffs. (at last i found one :)). Then going out with jon for my movie treat :D yay!
thursday - going back school to run again and giving someone a surprise! (haha)
friday - meeting fiona for mac breakfast then collect race pack with D&D perhaps S&J.
- maybe going to do a trial run for hair+make-up with char.
- Bro's POP :D

Exciting! :):)

HOW HOW HOW ! :]

2009-11-14T23:06:00.002+08:00

Still having exams, still got 6 more papers to go!
But i wanna delicate this post to fiona!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIONA NG S.L !!!!!!!!!!

no wonder you said you're going out today yet i didn't get the hint!
the worst part is i met you up just now OMG!
you remembered my birthday and i didn't remember yours, so so so sorry ):
owe you a pressssie :):)

ciaos.
jiayou everyone :D

2009-10-23T23:58:00.004+08:00

Graduation Day is today.
It was rather sad cause knowing that today marks the last time we will be singing the school song together as a cohort etc.
But it was no doubt a memorable one cause i took pictures with unexpected people. :)
It was really great!
Tsktsktsk, the pioneer song is actually quite nice eh.
After which had netball bbq, took many PIGGTURRESS and perspiring crazily. :)
Played games, sing together and feast :D
It's ironic when i feel i will miss SR a lot today when all the while i actually thought to myself "just get done and over with As and leave the school" awwww ):
Pictures will be uploaded soon, can't wait !!

Btw, Happy Birthday CM!

it's really funny how some people are trying so hard to gain back someone's trust while a few are repeatedly breaking it, perhaps intentionally or unknowingly. You can sit there and keep pondering on whether they know what they did is right, 'could it just be that they are ignorant, insensitive or perhaps plain dumb?' Talk is cheap. Everyone also can talk but is whether they will put it into actions. Don't try giving some sweet/encouraging talks when in actual fact you don't mean what you said. Or even those smiles which are clearly so fake. I rather you save those smiles and talks. Hypocrites.

Today is a day which gave me a clearer picture of what type of person you are. I don't know what you did behind my back, but you can save those explanations because you really don't know how is it feels like to receive such stares and comments.

18 more days.
i looked at my own reflection in the mirror & said:"i will hold on."

2009-10-11T23:19:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, dz! :D
eh i just realised this is your only birthday which is so happen to be on a sunday since i was sec 1.
haha. i think i owe many birthday presents :/

okay, tomorrow start of pre-A exams.
all the way everyone!
:)

It is You, It is You, It is You that I love.
It is You, my Lord and King.
I apprehend to know and be known
You, it is You, it is You that i worship.
Holy, Holy. Worthy, yes You're worthy.
How I love You Lord.

2009-10-04T03:40:00.006+08:00

King of Kings, Lord of Lords.

You chose the cross with every breath
The perfect life, The perfect death
You chose the cross
A crown of thorns you wore for us
And crowned us with eternal life
You chose the cross
And though your soul was overwhelmed with pain
Obedient to death You overcame

(Chorus)
I’m lost in wonder
I’m lost in love
I’m lost in praise forevermore
Because of Jesus’ unfailing love
I am forgiven
I am restored

You loosed the chords of sinfulness
And broke the chains of my disgrace
You chose the cross
Up from the grave victorious
You rose again so glorious
You chose the cross
The sorrow that surrounded you was mine
“Yet not my will but yours be done” You cried

And though Your soul was overwhelmed with pain
Obedient to death You overcame
The sorrow that surrounded You was mine
“Yet not My will but Yours be done,” You cried

thank You Jesus for the cross, the wonderful Cross.
What other pains and burdens that can compare with Yours and that we cannot bear?
It was said that the tortures and wounds were worst than what was portrayed in the movie, the passion of Christ.
Even before the creation of the earth and the universe itself, God had already set aside a space isolated far far far away from mankind a galaxy with a Cross at the centre. Jesus, being God's will to die on the cross for us and being the centre of the universe. This is how awesome, how great and how wonderful my God is. I guess as astronomers and scientists go deep in their findings, it pleases God as His people are able to be amazed at more and more of His splendid works which He has in stored for us.

This is what we call unconditional Love

2009-10-02T23:54:00.005+08:00

Can i still smile like this as A lvl is approaching?
There is no doubt that it is getting really tiring.
and that at some point in time, we have this urge to give up.
But be of good cheer! With all this hard work put in now, you will have higher probability to do well in A lvl. :)

It has been so long since i've updated.
Many things happened. I still can remember clearly one of the saturdays, i felt as if God was really with me the whole day though i know He is always with me. Get it? lol.
Okay, that day i went back to school. I went up the bus even before realising that my ez-link had no cash, so i asked one person after the other whether they have short change. None until i went up to this lady who did not have but took out her extra card and insisted i go tab it. I was really shocked yet grateful. So i rushed out of the bus to go get coins in hope that i could return her the 60cents but couldn't find her.

Then when i arrived at my school's bus-stop, i was stucked there. It was raining heavily.
Of all people, i went to call AB ahha! Then he asked seb to go guardhouse get an umbrella and come fetch me from the bus-stop. Such a great day right? :):) thank God for that day!

Have been staying in school to study, sometimes late in the night people will play christian music on the piano which i thank God for that. Amongst those busy and tensed up revision periods, coming along with christian music is so refreshing. Although studying is important, keeping yourself healthy and fit is essential too. Jiayou everyone :)

Jesus, in all i do, I honour You.
in all i do, I glorify Your name.
in all i do, I give praise to You.
in all i do, I put my trust in You.

2009-09-12T23:58:00.004+08:00

the Love of God

Cell was great today, felt the love of God.
What is the condition of your heart spiritually? a hardened hard? a choked heart?
Have you ever wondered why people take down notes during sermon? The bible states clearly that as the word of God is being preached to you, the devil will take that word away from you. At the end of the day, you will be wondering what was preached in the morning/afternoon.
So take down notes and pray for a teachable heart :)

After which went to meet the lim and tan families for dinner.
okay, i can officially say that pan pacific dinner buffet is not nice at all, perhaps only the cakes!
Ate quite alot still though, and something funny happened.
Bro and daph went to get pasta without waiting for me, so then they came back with their pastas and i went to get mine.
Me: Can i have the creamy sauce, cheese and mushrooms with spaghetti for my pasta?
Chef: Okay. why don't you go back to your seat first, i will bring it to you later.
Me: i gave this look O.O and said okay...(abit shocked and confused)
Chef: Where are you sitting?
Me: I just point. haha!

So i slowly walked back, still feeling weird.
then i asked daph - Eh ask you ah, you stand there wait for your pasta or they serve you?
she replied loudly - Of course wait and take your own pasta la, then you expect them to serve you meh?
I stunned and replied - eh but the chef asked me to come back sit and he will bring it to me leh.
(my bro was like laughing and told daph not to get jealous)
Then guess what happened! The chef personally came out of the kitchen and passed my pasta to his friend to give me. My bro whispered to me saying that the chef is standing behind me while i was eating my pasta. OMG.

SO IRRITATING please! what's with the stares! hahaha :/
ohh, my mum noticed those 2 guys too and was wondering what's with those stares and she laughed.. tsktsktsk.
ohwells, i won't recommend that place seriously.

Not to forget, i went swimming today :D
Swam 14 laps while charlene never even swim can! She is being too obsessed with sun-tanning and wanting the golden brown skin LOL! Oh, and she said she would like skin colour something like mine. =.= I cannot take it, i pity her skin man! RELAX GIRL!
:)

ciaos.

2009-09-11T23:54:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY LYN :D

Don't you know there should be a day of relaxation from books, boOKS and more BOOKS.
so it was a good idea going for a picnic at marina barage on thurs at the same time celebrating lyn's bd :)

The weather was suitable for sun-tanning la! super duper hot! Evonne was super red after the whole thing. There were tuna sandwiches, sausages, SEAWEED CHICKEN (inside joke) and drinks. Took quite a few pics as well as failed jump shots. HAHAA! Eh we must fly kite next time laa!

** I bought a dress :) thanks to the girls!
Charlene at first brought the dress into the fitting room then they said it doesn't fit her and they looked at me and asked me try. tsktsktsk! So paiseh please!
haha! and i told char i will wear it with leggings, and she replied she will kill me if i do. LOL.

Evonne's the only one without sunglass while i'm the only one without wedges ):
I wanna buy one! lol.

Netball girls, all the way!
Lyn, all the way for your promos!

Tsktsk. I just heard about something, i'm getting so curious.
I can't wait for sunday, i wanna see what is it.
Why is there something which i don't know, didn't see before!
ahhhhh. :/

2009-09-04T23:04:00.003+08:00

NUMB.

today marks the last day of term 3, 9 weeks more to Alvl.
Can you believe it? In less than 2 months, we will have our graduation day, perhaps i will cry. HAHAH! I still remember i cried when i saw my sec 4 and 5 seniors graduate. My friend looked at me and said: "Do you need a pail?" :D
Before we know it, we are preparing for prom night. Ohya, who's going prom night anyway? :/
Seems like no one is interested eh.

I don't know why, but i really dislike liars.
I mean why don't you be truthful about it rather than letting your ego/pride gets in the way.
When the truth is right infront of my eyes, don't try coming to me with all those crap and excuses.
It will just make things worse. Once that trust is broken, don't you know that it will be so difficult to gain it back?

2009-08-31T20:35:00.004+08:00

Happy Teacher's Day!

ended rather early, wanted to go back sec school but in the end we went marina square eat mac breakfast. haha!
we went from the backdoor of mac, it was embarrassing because they are there.
Hoping it is not going to be embarrassing! I really wanted my big breakfast badly! ahhhh tsktsk.
So in the end someone came up and asked us to go over.
me: huh, unless you take our trays there. (thinking that it won't happen)
someone: (getting ready to carry them) okay, but you all have to take your own drink.
me: O.O

When we walked out, i can hear my name everywhere!
this is irritating! I dare not even look up, i quickly slide into the chair and continued eating my breakfast. ahhhh, so much for a peaceful breakfast right!
lol.

Went to bowl plus watch movie. Why do i feel that i have been watching many movies and going to the toilet often lately haha!! thanks to someone.

I will be touched if someone, anyone surprises me with a soft toy that is attained by you know those machines in arcade? HEH! so cool please!

take care (:

2009-08-30T23:47:00.002+08:00

Great day today.
Service at city church was nice, seeing people like william again! :D
he is being a drummer for service.
can you imagine 2 yrs ago he was my classmate and about 1yr ago he joined my church, now he's playing for service. God is really impacting his life, and impacting people's life through his.

After which, went 3rd service.
service today was preached by pst Ben.
I really felt God's presence, i believe strongly that today's message was for me. As in i feel God asking me to respond to this msg.
time and time again, i keep having the same prophecy from different people.
I am Hannah. I need the desperation and hunger that this woman of a great God has.
ps. she is not a great woman of God, she is a woman of a great God !
- quoted by sabby :D

Prayer of Intercession.

Went plaza sing with s and watched year 1. lame comedy show! LOL!
before that walked around the mall and i bought a file :)
haha. i feel like being an irritating person and ask him do more funny things :D
ahhhh. there's school tomorrow, teacher's day celebration.

alrighty, nights.
thanks for the treat ! :]

2009-08-29T23:05:00.002+08:00

WHERE'S MY SUNSHINE?

went swimming today, at the same time suntanned. I'm seriously as red as a lobster.
rather happy :)
ate alot alot alot at char's place; beef noodles, sushi, sausage, fishball and crabmeat.
played something like guitar hero, there's drums microphone and guitar.
fun man, i'm better in guitar and mic but not drums! ahhhhh. HAHAHA!

ohwells, i'm rather excited for tomorrow!
i don't know why, lol. someone just pour cold water on me, wake me up please!
I couldn't believe it, i'm over the moon! perhaps it's just that i'm watching movie. :)
what to wear, i need to know! shirt and black jeans kKkKkkK!
HEHEH, whatever la. :/

CIAOS :D

2009-08-29T01:50:00.005+08:00

Today (Fri) marks the last day of prelims! :D

having such exuberance after the last paper until i ran for my bag in the locker.
ND still said:"wah, zhe me kuai ah?"
HAHA! yes, faster change faster ciaos.
Off to meet char for hair-cutting, dinner at a japanese restaurant and marvelous cream :)
happy yummmy! just that i think i shouldn't have put in white peach confiture, if not perfect. haha!
And i like my hair, the company and the incoming msges :]
ohya, going char's house for gym in a few hours' time and then off for cellgroup!

can't wait for sunday!
To the City Church grand opening and then go out :)

Though it may be the last day of prelims, it isn't going to end here. This isn't the final destination we should be aiming for.
This isn't the time to be comfortable or slackened.
This isn't the time to be distracted.

Well, i seriously can't understand why do you have that thought in your head.
you are just thinking too much, you are being too sensitive.
If i've wanted to be that way, it will not be to be against you, but the whole of s'pore.
You are just being too narrow-minded to be thinking that way.
Yes indeed, this has affected our friendship and i know you felt it too.
You should have seen this coming, since you've told not one but to a few regarding me.

take care peeps!
I can't wait, exciting!
Seriously over the moon :D

2009-08-16T20:39:00.002+08:00

Is this for real ?

prelims starting tomorrow!
all the way people! :)

Now is the season for healing
Deeply we need to see God's mercy revealing
Where we have fallen from His way
For we know He gives hope to the humble
Gives light in the darkness
And grace when we stumble
Let us call on His name together

Now is the day to awaken
To pray with conviction
For the souls of the nation
So let us call on His name
Whose faithful promise still remains

goodnight (:

2009-08-10T19:28:00.003+08:00

It's hard to believe tomorrow is school again.
It's like my 3days break are over just like that.
Coming back to reality that next week will be prelims already.
Don't feel prepared. why oh why.

Have been thinking quite a lot these days.
I kinda feel i've lost a friend, someone close to me.
I don't know what's up. I admit i'm being overboard these days, saying things which i ought not to say. It's just how i feel.
I really think that so what if you can be a leader in this ministry or that ministry. If you don't even behave like one, you don't even present yourself to be a role model to the younger ones, just stop, stop living a 2 sided life.
Isn't it your responsible to make sure that the younger ones go home early by a certain time? Isn't it your responsibility that especially a girl shouldn't be out so late almost all the time?

I thank God for guarding my heart and opening the eyes of my heart.
I pray He would continue to be the guard of my heart, the master of my priorities, A teacher in my studies, the ruler of my life.
I thank God for my zone, setting a standard that people who are in primary or secondary are supposed to be home by 9pm every weekdays. Compulsory to be at home on sundays for dinner. Of course, i will not believe that this will be followed by every single person, but at least the message is put across. This is a choice, not a command. People still can make a choice of going home early, but would going home late glorify God's name in your family, among your friends?
I wonder.

I thank God for a new friend.
It's just so funny but yet amazing.

Matthew 7:21-23
take care!

2009-08-09T23:39:00.003+08:00

netball cliques :):)

Classmates after PE :D

Friday had Thanksgiving 2009. It was great!
the teachers really did quite a good job singing, acting, jamming, dancing! :D
After which took many many pics with classmates, study mate and netball cliques (:
hees, painted my face with ona and someone said it was funny ):
i wonder who. tsktsktsk!
Went Ion with the girls for dinner and to coffeeclub for a drink.
thanks for the night :]

I kinda like soccer now LOL! i'm going crazy :)
perhaps not that i like soccer, but i like torres only.
AHAHA, but someone got to shook his hand. i wonder who again.

nights!

2009-08-02T23:19:00.002+08:00

I'm so sorry joel tan!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GIRL!
awww, i think i missed out on your bd celebration or perhaps you all forgotten about me already. But in any case, hope you enjoyed (: I'm so sorry again ! :/

Also, happy birthday Ona!

Today's service was superd.
God moved powerfully. I can feel His love there and then.
Indeed if you have Jesus in your life, you will have everything.
This reminded me of a verse in the bible which says
"But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you."- Matthew 6:33
Looking forward to this friday, sat and sun :D I.can't.wait.seriously.

Well, I pray and pray that I will be light for Jesus in school.
I will learn to prioritize and make God the centre of everything.
I need to be disciplined. "pray without ceasing and in everything give thanks. Amen." :)

Alrighty, give me the strength for tomorrow and the whole week!
take care peeps! :D

2009-08-01T00:12:00.002+08:00

A quick one.

gonna have 'Will Run' in a few hours' time.
jiayou everyone! aim for more than 10km :D
alrighty, i reply the tags tomorrow. Need to slp, need the strength.
God, give me the joy cause the joy of the Lord is our strength. :):)

NIGHTS.

2009-07-26T00:39:00.006+08:00

NDP preview

went for cellgroup for awhile before i went for the preview
it wasn't that fabulous afterall besides the heart-shaped torch in the goodie bags. It has 2 colours, red and white. it's nice and romantic i should say.
I shall let the pictures do the talking then.

p.s don't blame me for those not so clear shots. Camera last minute went haywire, my handphone 3.2mp was the last resort.
haha. :)

Went east point for dinner.
I went alone to this some japanese stall.
It was empty since the place was like closing already.
I bought my food and sat nearer to the guy who was the only customer left. this is to prevent myself from feeling out of place. haha!
So while eating, i thought that that guy beside me has attitude problem. He even talked loudly on the phone. There his friends came and join him a while later.
The lady working there went to them and gave them sushis for free.
And i was like wow O.O what's wrong with her? At least offer me too right...
yeah, she came to give me one salmon sushi that cost 3bucks. LOL.
then she and the guys continued talking.
She cleared the food displayed on the shelves and gave some to the guys again..
this time the guy said: "aiyoo, don't give us already la, we so skinny , eat until very full already. Go give to that girl over there.."
They stared at me and i stared back
the lady said don't like that to her, she just ate rice she must be full.
And they laughed =.=
the lady continued: "girl. you must feel honoured okay, our boss asking me give you free sushis."
one of the guys said: "don't like that say, must tell her she is very fortunate today."
I was rather shocked. HAHA =.=
they looked rather young leh, so weird. whatever la.
my $5.30 food feels like 10bucks food. HEHE.

thank God for today. :)
take care people!

2009-07-25T00:32:00.002+08:00

I think my blog is rusting HAHA :D

I have began talking to my classmates, like talk and laugh alot.
I thought it was good, and that they are actually rather nice (:
HAHA. imagine someone getting you cup-noodles to eat without you knowing.
that's what my classmate did. He bought cup-noodle for me and i didn't know, so i went to the cafe to get myself a sandwich. And when i got back to class, he asked why i still buy the sandwich cause he bought me that already. I was stunt.
thanks ah. and so much for lending me pen and highlighter. I lost the highlighter :X
omgg.

Have been trying to run, running alone or even with my classmates.
ran 4km for a few times already, now running 5km or more.
hoping to get my stamina back cause 1st Aug is coming. I need to hit the target of running 16km!

Went out with yunjia, crystal, ibrahim and joel today.
let's skip the part when we're on the way to vivo (:
I had quite a lot of fun, practically laughing all the way.
i can't eat my CJ burger properly, afraid to drink my ice tea too cause i might choke :/
watched movie, it was not bad but the storyline is too predictable.
ate ben&jerry then took some pictures.
I could say this is my first 'class outing' cause i always miss all the other outings.
When i first got to vivo, i suddenly thought about junwei and his 'laopo bing' so went to buy 1 packet of 5 for him since i still owe him bd present. hopefully it can remain as fresh till tomorrow.
haha!

Such a great day and great week.
Thank God despite all that is happening in school and for me.
I pray that I will know what are my priorities.
I need to do something, something which should be done on mon.
MQ, remember!

takecare. RED shirt tomorrow!
look forward! fireworks and goodie bags :D

2009-07-20T23:02:00.001+08:00

Hold on, hold on!
When the current pulls you under,
And your heart beats like thunder.
Just give me your hand,
And hold on, hold on!
Until the storm is over,
And I'll be fighting for you.
Just give me your hand and,
Hold on!

Jesus, be the centre of my life.

2009-07-11T00:39:00.005+08:00

YAWNS. at last the weekend is here! my so-called break =/
well, the week has been rather tough.
I think it's time to wake up, it's about 4months to As.
Seriously, i wasn't paying much attention to the month i'm in now until announcements were made recently and there's a sudden 'ring' in my innermost being.
I need to build studying momentum.
Most importantly, like what Vkwan said, trust God and draw on His strength.
This way, there is joy and peace while studying :)
I pray for true friends who are willing to give a helping hand and do not expect any returns.
I pray for black hearts to be purified.
I pray for strength to be renewed.

Met up with TingXin just now at hougang mall, and we had a really long talk. (:
It had been so long since i've talked so much to someone face to face.
thanks for the listening ears !

Tomorrow's Red-Alert event!
Can't wait!

“Do all the good you can, by all the means you can, in all the ways you can, in all the places you can, at all the times you can, to all the people you can, as long as ever you can.”
- John Wesley.

2009-07-05T01:28:00.007+08:00

I'm feeling the laziness to update. :O
yawns, i wanna slp!

went to get 4season durian pancakes again last week.
then J was kind enough to make scrambled eggs. It's cool cause he used milk and butter to cook it. O.O But i gave it 8 cause there was no pepper taste and the egg wasn't mixed properly.
:D together with baked beans, it was yummy (: thanks much.
&& in the end, i went home late and i forgot about my pancakes and it tasted bad ):

Had zone meeting too at west coast park.
It was greatgreatgreat :D "CLICKCLICK" we are the champions !
HAHAA. seriously, check out the videos on FB on how we formed our 4 different groups.
the idea was hilarious yet interesting.

This week was rather good :) praise God for it, seriously.
It was my first time vomitting in school, and somemore on the first day of school after a long hols.
Felt really really sick, the feeling after and before vomit was horrible!
Didn't take PE which means i skipped a chance of burning my fats, awww.
my cousins picked me up from school, felt bad for troubling them.

Had prayer meeting on thurs and i believe God was there with us.
He touched lives and convicted our hearts. Even lukewarm christians want to draw back closer to Him.
ThankYou Jesus.

Also, J came to Sr. You know when an outsider enters an unfamiliar place, they will normally feel awkward and out of place. But J was an exception. Pm ended late so when i went to look for him, he was actually playing bball with my school peeps! wow O.o
tsktsktsktsk, and got himself injured. -.-
I finished my 10 rounds yay! :D someone only ran 3 and walked 2 rounds with me.
thanks ah.. hah!
5 games of pool in 1hr, i thought it was worth it :D haha!

Went white dog cafe with junwei, ts and his collegues.
It was kinda funny at first but i guess i loosened up a little after all the talks and laughters.
hopefully the food was up to their taste :/ ohwells.
Then we went haagen-daz cause i was still hungry, wanted CJ so much. Cravings for beef chilli cheese fries you know you know!!
Ordered a brownie and straight away whispered to jw that i won't be surprised if the brownie turns out to be "BIG".
It really turned out that way and it costs me 7bucks inclusive of GST. tsktsktsk!
CMI please.

Overdue pictures on my 5 training sections of volleyball.

Happy 20th anniversary to SRJC :D
and congrats to cheryl and tx !
Cheryl speech was superd, really want to listen to it the second time.
And imagine yourself leaving cell early and taking a cab down with your cell leader to your school for a celebration and your cell leader herself is supposed to be there to go up stage collect a prize.
COOL?
And just when the ceremony started, i asked a friend who i plan to invite for the upcoming "Red-Alert" event What are his dreams. J posted this question to me too.
His answer was interesting that i have to shout a big WHY and he explained.
Cheryl then gave a speech on the stage which included this same question and he gave me a O.O look. Prophetic! ahaha.
yeap, hopefully he got my point and he will come. He needs Jesus :)

Nights.

2009-06-25T13:54:00.001+08:00

Do what You can,
for who You can,
with what You have,
and where You are.

-

2009-06-25T00:36:00.004+08:00

Prayer meeting today was great.
It's rather awkward praying out loud together with my new cellgroup for the first time, but i'm glad i did pray (:
After pm, went to eat with my new cell-mates.
I felt really part of the cell already and i thank God for that.
And i thank God for placing me in a new cell that is mostly girls. HAHAHA. :D
my parents will be more than happy.
SERIOUS. =.=

I'm looking forward to what's God gonna do in the cell.
it's funny but i'm excited. :)
I'm excited about growing and loving Him more.
I'm excited about what God is gonna do through every single member in the cell
I'm excited about the fellowship in the cell.
I'm excited. :D

Going for dinner with them tomorrow.
lol, and zone outing this sat. happening!
And school's gonna start, man oh man. not prepared to go on a new term.
While reluctant to go back school and start work, i'm looking forward to the prayer plan we gonna have in school by rystine, rachel HK, rina and me.
God, please be there to guild us and hide us under the shadow of Your wings that no evil shall be against us.

ciaos.

2009-06-21T23:59:00.003+08:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY :D

went to have buffet lunch at opposite chinese garden swimming complex.
It was rather good :)
Went to white dog cafe yesterday to celebrate father's day too.
LOL. and i bought a pair of everlast shoes and a zara shirt. i like the shoes ALOT :)
shall wear it tomorrow? ahhhhhh.
anyway, i didn't play bball well today. perhaps i was being provoked and really tired.
really feel sian now.

i really thought to myself just now.
who can really listen and not answer me with just one word or 1 sentence but give me strings of encouragements?
And seriously, about the jc thing. i've got nothing to say. -.-

tc! look forward to tomorrow :)
hopefully i won't be late.

2009-06-21T02:12:00.005+08:00

THURSDAY

Had school in the morning.
Bought my 4season durian kueh!
Met J after that and he was late, cause he overslept. tsktsk.
Then he brought me to eat wanton mee.
I wonder why i was so blur. Made both the stall aunty and him laugh.
so embarrassing.
The shui jiao was nice :) and also the crispy wanton.
After finished eating, he wanted to eat ice-kachang but i pointed to the chee kueh he bought from nearby his house.
It had been so long since i ate that ): i think it was my first time eating it this year.
misss it :D
Went arcade. ahhhhh, should have played the dancing one instead eh?

Then had an awesome time with Estie, Antarcus and ts at ECP and bugis :D
Esther and A were super funny throughout the cycle. Made me laugh alot haha!
especially when A was pushing the bike while she was on it. It was supposed to be A complaining tired but instead throughout, esther was complaining. It's as if she was helping him to say it. HAHAHAHAHHA. funnny la you two (:

Wonderful weather and sunshine (:

Ts was late for work, somemore late for 1hr! sorry eh. :/
When he was working, we three went HLX to eat. I just miss the mango SAGO (not tango =p) hahaha. super nice! yummmm.
After that, we went berrylite to have some creamy yummy yogurt. hees.

I like these 2 pics above.
Credits to esther, with much better photography skills than me :)

Glad to be able to hang out and chat so much with you.
Miss you girl! Hope we still can go out some time to 'lim teh' together even as school starts.
Really happy to hear that you've decided to get serious with God.
Let's run this not easy but tough race together that none of us should ever give up k? :)

Just kept thinking about some things today.
do i even have some thing i'm talented in?
If not, how do i even recognise and harness the talent?
ohwells.

tc (:

2009-06-19T23:22:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling the blankness now.
I don't remember the things i said last night, all i know was i'm too tired.
I even told J i'm too tired and asked if i could do the note later in the morning.
he said your choice, better go slp cause long day for you today.
so i went offline, before slping, i talked on the phone.
next morning when i saw the comments, i was super shocked.
to me, i thought it was very random. I couldn't take it, so i became angry.
was chatting with jw, so he said perhaps you're jealous or something.
i seriously didn't get it why you must do that for.
my fault for saying that, it's not that word. i don't know how to describe in just one word. :/
I didn't lie, i really didn't know what is that called, so i said quiz.
I also remembered you were asking me something but i can't remember what was it! I just know i was half-way aslp.
It's my fault this time. Guess i'm gonna lose a good friend soon, very soon.
It's rarely your fault, i was joking whenever i said it.
okay never mind.

will update soon on my ecp trip with pictures next time.

2009-06-18T00:19:00.004+08:00

why am i feeling so unimportant, so insignificant.
they can just kept laughing and saying.
nothing nothing nothing and more nothing when i asked.
If that's the case, what's the point of having goodfriends in this world.
it is just the name, for show right?

ahhhh. give me a punching bag, i wanna vent my frustrations.

On the way to church, I was thinking a lot.
I really need to set my heart into studying. This is a wake-up call.
I need God to teach me to pray just like how hannah pray.
I need to set aside half-hearted prayers, but instead being desperate and hungry for greater change in my life.
I need to get rid of laziness, the desire to just rest.

and now, i need to take a chill pill. perhaps, many chill pills.

2009-06-17T13:25:00.007+08:00

FUN :D

Went Marina Barrage with Estie, Tarcus and LCM for picnic (:
Joel was supposed to join us, it's alright there's always a next time girl.
Cheer up okay, you're not alone. Never.

The sky was super dark, and we thought it was going to rain.
but thank God for answering my prayer, it didn't.
the weather was just nice, not that hot.
HEES.

Thanks for the sandwiches and sausages(:
Thanks for the picnic, the kite-flying and the fun people :D:D
Can't wait to get my 4season durian, and someone to bring me go eat chee kueh :) plus go skating at ecp tomorrow!

Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it.

2009-06-15T12:33:00.004+08:00

Joel tan :)
i will see you in tp some time. i will want to go there, must bring me eat nice food :D

my room is neat now, even daph says so. hoho!
ohh, before i continue. thanks ts and junwei for buying things from m'sia for us.
Hees.
I asked someone something just now.
He replied: "They don't know you, that's why will think that way."
yeah, why hear one side of the story only?
Talk when you have heard both sides of the story, if not what you're saying is just bullshit so just shut your gap.

omg, i'm kinda excited about later. Gonna have picnic! :) come on esther, i wanna try the sandwiches! i must continue to practice punctuality, have been improving !
I pray, let it not rain Jesus!

I have been a fortunate kid.
I've got almost everything in life.
I've got nothing to complain about, which makes me wonder why am i complaining about minor things at times. It's time to change.
I do not need to save up my own money to buy the things i want.
When i want to work for experience and fun, my parents will say it's up to me but actually don't have to, go enjoy your holidays. But still i wanna work, and i already know where i want to work :) It has been 2 yrs since i worked, the last time was being a salesgirl hees. fun la!
I have Jesus in my life.
I'm blessed with a cool family.
Bro is talented almost in everything, to me he is someone i look up to.
I'm blessed with great good friends.
and i know that my future is in God's hands, properly planned out.

so please, God i want to love You more and love people more.

bye.

2009-06-11T00:33:00.005+08:00

I packed my room today.
I soaked my socks ytd, but thanks mum for washing them up for me today.

I still have got alittle more to go in packing my room, before i start vacuuming :)
the 3 tables in my room will be super obvious now.
i will be facing the door while studying and those 2 will not try to scare me.
HAHAHAHA. if they are planning to.
i will then be facing the window while using the com.

and YES, i almost forgot.
i was told through sms to check my midyrs gp result while i was having fun at east coast rd.
my heart skipped a bit. i was scared of course.
I prayed and told myself the first thing i get home is not to do anything else but straight to my mail.
guess what? I passed my gp and not a S :D:D:D
thank God Praise Jesus! I must also thank mr RA.
for once you know, FOR ONCE since i was j1. D':

a few more hours. yay :D

2009-06-10T13:48:00.004+08:00

Saturday didn't have cellgroup.
so went out with mummy for shopping :D
it has been so long since i went shopping with her.
we went straight to Zara, bought a vest :)
wanted to go CottonOn after that, but couldn't find one.
sad, wanted to buy quite a few stuffs from there too! ohwells.
Ate alittle and offff to meet the peeps!

Actually i went off earlier to look for something. HAHA.
and yes, everyone thinks i will be late lo, especially you-know-who.
and yes, we had dinner at clarke quay along the river haha!
the seafood spaghetti was O.O wow, is really more than expected.
still, ts and jw kept filling my plate with pizzas. OMG.
after which went to daph's house, played with princess.
very tiring yet funny. HAHAA :D
great night, hope you enjoyed your birthday and like the presents we gave (:

Sunday invited fiona to church and she came!
really happy, thanks for coming girl :)
then brought her to berrylite. she likes it eh :D hees.
Went grocery shopping with mum and bro.
we bought SO MUCH. ham, bacon, sliced fish, 3 boxes for yogurt biscuits, ALOT of sushi, etc etc.
ohh, i love love love cedele carrot cake. TALL and YUMMY :D
okay, went for family dinner at din tai feng.
mum and aunts ordered too much seriously though its wonderful i know.
it was 915pm by the time we finished. i was super pissed!
rush my dad to fetch me to where i was gonna play bball.
alighted and quickly went to change.
and i like that night, i played 4matches in one shot. 4vs 4. :)
once again, chow is in my team, for 3wks already HAHA.
He's super good, i just couldn't stand it when he 'cat-walk' :X
kidding.
When i go amk get my four seasons durian, i will ask him to bring me around to eat nice food!
yayyy :D

Tuesday (yesterday) went out with joel tan! omggg, after 12871946128973 mths of not meeting up! we had 3hrs of cycling, in betweens chit-chatted, ate ice-creams plus cam-whore :)
when kim came, she said out loud : 'your K!' I was like =.= omg. that was like ancient, only sec 1 and 2. HAHA!
I was complaining and complaining at the end that i was very tired.
so we gave back the bikes and went coffee bean.
K treated and yes both of them kept laughing at me. tsktsktsk.
We left to meet joel's boyf and off to Astons :D:D:D so long didn't go there too!
After which ice-cream chef! OMGG, i love it love it love.
K came with his bike and we cam-whored :)

thanks for the day bestie.
see you next wed again :D
as for you K, it has been 6yrs since i knew you. when i was sec 1, you were my senior sec 4.
it's really funny how we still keep in contact till now.
while i was cycling and you skating, it reminded me when i was sec 1.
whenever i have cellgroup outing at ecp, you will come down and skate while my cellmates and i cycled. its still the same now, it has always been the same, you came down again. :)
thanks good friend cum senior. tc!

uploading pictures soon :}

ts and jw, come back safely. tomorrow!

2009-06-06T08:34:00.008+08:00

Happy Birthday thiam siang ! :D
(omg, don't kill me for putting this pic here. HEHE)

time check: 835am.
i just came back from a good jog awhile ago. :)
slept less than 3hrs, omg. how did i even wake up to jog.
HAHA! fats burn burn BURN! :X

ohwells, gonna be a great day !
can't wait to go shopping later with my mama, super a lot of things i want to buy.
then have fun and go merry the whole night!
But first, i need to eat my breakfast and have alittle rest :}

OHH. people, please go to the website below.

(want yummy fresh-baked cookies? click here.)

my friend is selling hand-made cookies and it's real good.
ordered some from him and eaten them all already. eg. almond chocolate, butter scotch and marble cookies.
the prices are really reasonable plus if you order now, there is 10% discount.
so yeah, TRUST MY TASTE :)
you can order through me if you want !

2009-06-01T23:40:00.003+08:00

i'm enjoying my holidays.
but at the same time, i'm taking heed to the advice elisha told me yesterday (:
Slept too late last night, so when we were having principal talk this morning, i was feeling lethargic.
i ought to sleep early tonight.
Ate prata today, mushroom cheese. it was yummy!
played quite a few games of pool and after which bball!
:))
Off to airport to eat popeye's. It has been so long since i ate that.

it's true that we need to first fill up the core with close friends of the same gender.
Those are the people who you can trust, who you can share your emotions and opinions with and have back constructive advices.
Then you fill up the crust (social circle) where there is a mixture of guys and girls.
I realised how important is it to have a girlfriend or perhaps girlfriends whom you can turn to.
And i thank God for blessing me with a few though not many. i'm contented already :)

ciaos.

2009-05-30T01:25:00.005+08:00

i wanna play guitar again.

it's time to touch my guitar already!

come on man, let's go strum alittle :D

OH EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER !

yay babeyyyy :)

currently the time is 133am and i'm not at home.

at parkway hanging out hees :)

Went out with fiona awhile and we bought a hairband in just 5mins.

after which had lunch at delifrance and berrylite.

holidays are here, i gladly welcome it but thinking about the work i need to do plus the days i have to go back school, make me face white. HA :D

since exams are over, i need to find some time to exercise and lose fats too (: anyone?

plus, i need to catch up on my work and reading of newspapers.

hopefully this holiday won't fly pass that quickly. Jesus, multiply my time!

i heard stuffs about you

and seriously, what else can i say ..

you're simply a jerk, a piece of thrash and someone who thinks highly of himself.

you spend money worse than my own brother, like a running tap.

you think you're cool with all those expensive possessions?

no. think again. you're just being a loser who is plain ignorant of where those money come from.

you're totally behind time in your sense of fashion.

people change for the better but you're a laughing stock. you change for the worse.
anyway, i have to thank you. Without you in my life, i realised i'm so much happier.

Continue to live your life like what it is now, you will find that you're just an empty shell who's just trying to fit in with those people, in this poly life.

ps. wake up your idea, don't spend 229 bucks on those ugly shoes just to make yourself look good. It doesn't work, dork.

its 210am now, time to pool.

ciaos.

2009-05-17T20:08:00.002+08:00

Gonna be the first paper tomorrow !
I know i can pull through these 2 weeks :)
by God's strength, grace and peace !

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today

- Don Moen : God will make a way

All the best everyone (:

2009-05-14T01:15:00.002+08:00

some pictures i found haha :D

well. exams are starting in like 4 days time.
am i prepared? i don't know, still working hard!
hope to cover quite a bit of my revision tomorrow.
Having my study break now!
Will not be exercising for the next 2 weeks, hopefully if nothing goes wrong tomorrow, i can go running!
ahhhh, i need to go rub my own bruise can! really hope tomorrow will be okay.
Will be running with ts tomorrow. Again hopefully can run 4km, cause someone is doubtful that he can finish 3km. :/ LOL!

alrighty, study hard people!
take care.

i never knew how much you love me last time.
i'm sorry, and i give you my word.
don't worry, really.

2009-05-11T13:30:00.005+08:00

we were having cell in the carpark at 6th storey!
hahaha.

' Happily Ever After '

service yesterday was great! it made me realize some things.
Love or Lust ?
it is something worth thinking about whether you truly love someone or its just something which is temporal.
It feels so good being in the house of God every sunday instead of idling around elsewhere.
I thank God for always watching over me, and blessing me with wonderful friends.
I'm looking forward to next sunday :D

After church went to eat curry rice with cell! yippie!
it had been 1 yr since i ate it :) ahhhhh.
then met junwei, ts, and one more guy call nicholas? i don't know la ah. yeah, berrylite! :]
went tamp to play bball. it has been so long since i played.
plus able to play with the changkat people. the memories are like as if i'm repeating sec 2!
cause i just have to stay at one spot and they will pass me the ball to shoot :X
i'm happy :) got in at least 2-3 ! YAY.

hopefully my leg will be okay !

YEAH madel, another exciting week ahead! you too :D
Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

you will always be there, i know that.

2009-05-10T00:52:00.004+08:00

A girl with an ice-cream cone. :)

someone asked me how was my week.
i replied it was an exciting week.
haha. it was great!
i passed my phy lecture test. Although it's a just pass thing, but i really really thank God.
when people around you think that you can't do it, always remember that God will give you the knowledge and strength to pull through it.

My church is having an event tomorrow that is called 'Happily Ever After' I'm looking forward to it. after which go eat berrylite first! :D
then hopefully fiona coming! and can play bball!

okay, back to my exciting week.
Something happened on thurs and pray God will watch over me and my household :)
i said 'i love you, i love you Jesus'.

Plus, i officially finished ALL my science SPAs. yay!
did my phy spa on friday. thumbs up !
then went AMK. it was very funnny.

'sorry i'm late!'
someone smiling and shaking his head
'you buying anything not?'
'(nod my head and look at the queue) O.O'
'okay lo..'
i was about to join the queue
'aiyah, i know you will be late, i queued and ordered already.'
omg lol! so paiseh please.

after which took a train all the way to tamp to meet ts.
Then he gave me the cookies that he and junwei baked.
funnny la, two guys baking cookies. :X
but well, at the same time go eat dinner plus eat frolick! omg, nicenicenice!
ts just kept smiling to himself and when i asked why,
he just said he keep thinking about he and my bro doing this that.
GAY! hahahah. :X

looking forward to tomorrow, and i should get going with my work tomorrow!
take care people.

i know you care.

2009-05-05T01:45:00.003+08:00

Look at me, i'm happy. :D:D
yesterday left slightly earlier so to get my four seasons durian from someone.
i can't believe i am able to teach austin one physics question! O M G.
you don't know how scared i was when he asked me.
my physics is never good, and i've very little confident in teaching others for that subject.
but yeah, i done it (: i taught him and was correct k!
after which shifted to mac to continue doing.

thanks for the durian pancake ah :]

i'm glad i told you how i feel .
Well, it's true and yes i'm silly. sigh.
you're pretending you don't know what was i saying today right.
take care dz.

2009-05-03T21:41:00.006+08:00

Went for 3rd today.
when the praise started, i thought to myself. I'm home.
after going one big detour, I'm finally back!

i feel so bad yet sad.
if you're telling me you're regretting now, i'm feeling even more regretful.
i have been thinking, if only you just ask me whether it is true 3yrs back, i will definitely tell you and assure you it's not.
i will never then have any chance for all these foolish stupid mistakes happening.
we will study even harder for our Os, i will not get distracted.
when you reminded me of those moments, i realized that all this while i have been blinded.
blinded by the things of the world. i have taken everything for granted eh ?
i cried, yes i did.
how i wish everything will be the same as before now.
i know they won't be.
I wanted to ask something, but yeah.
I'm really sorry.

take care.

2009-05-03T00:06:00.003+08:00

fun day. !
went parkway with daph and bro to pierce my ear.
have 2 pairs of piercings now. it was rather okay, not that pain after all :]
then ate yogurt (chocolate somemore) haha.
went to watch Taken. very nice :) so touching.
after which went around looking for mum's mothers day present plus afew other presents.
i bought ear sticks, favourite white black pink ones !
erm plus friendship band. daph helped me to wear it on my leg, ps please ! :D

Off to Fiona's house.
ate alittle plus see alittle of alvin's magic tricks.
i still don't get it. it's really cool !
we made our way to dte to get some stuffs. and yes, guys are fickle-minded.
SERIOUSLY.
played daytona (spell correctly?) twice.
decided not to watch movie since it's really late, so i'm back here updating this post! :D:D
if i watch with them, it will be 1plus 2am already. how do i wake up for church tomorrow?
thanks for inviting me gf. :}

I can't wait for friday laaaaaa.

take care.
i better be bathing !
nights.

2009-05-01T00:02:00.003+08:00

At last my short break is here. :)
Although the week was rather tiring. i managed to get through it by God's grace.
i have been sleeping early these days too. partly is because i fell aslp when i shouldn't be.
how to keep my eyes open, my mind working?
is to sleep early the previous night i guess.

i kinda started talking to my classmates. haha! don't you know i'm anti-social :X
nah, just kidding.
yeah, and they tried lying to me. Somehow i don't buy that.
I clearly remember that i didn't treat them before, not even once.
but after buying for me sandwich today, they kept insisting i don't have to pay back cause i treated them before.
The best part is that they claimed that i treated them cup noodles in the beginning of this year.
LIKE HELLO? i don't even know my school sells them at that time la:/ HAHAHA! poor liars please.

ohh, i haven use the card joel gave to claim for the club sandwich yet.
perhaps i will use it when i forget to bring money that day (:
thanks for the sandwich, pen etc. you and V 's boyf.
i think they will see this since they both are always calling out my blog name like EVERYDAY. O.O

Ohya, just got back my chem lect test.
I was very surprised. God really does miracles. seriously.
and my teacher marked my gp essay test infront of me during consultation.
It was amazing cause 1 more mark i pass!

Praise Jesus for He is great (:

p.s give me my hello panda on sun!

2009-04-26T11:55:00.006+08:00

Happy belated birthday, char ! :D

SR Olympics on fri.
kept eating. subway cookie, yogurt, etc.
after which went up to the miny stage and took my medal :)
then joined 30x200m for fun.
wore sneakers so my friend lent me her spikes.
O M G , nice to run with but alittle painful. perhaps it was too small :x

Met fiona and R at dte.
then i went to meet the girls to celebrate char's birthday.
we ate haagen-daz. her treat :D
thanks ah .
crazy time together, especially the dancing part and ___.
LOL.

Watched seventeen again with R yesterday.
i thought the movie was rather nice :/ haha!
erm ate alot alot. but someone just kept eating and eating. wonder who. :D
ohhh, and i saw the BB gang. i guess they were shocked to see me.
somehow, i miss the secondary days. the friends, environment, workload, food etc.
ohwells.

take care of yourself ):
i'm so glad when i saw what you typed to me last night.
study hard boy.
<3

2009-04-23T22:19:00.002+08:00

I can't wait for tomorrow !
Orion :D

I'm tired, but thinking of tomorrow makes me feel like i shouldn't sleep so early tonight !
this whole week have been a busy week. & that's good.
Had chem lecture test ytd as well as a GP essay test today.
hopefully i could pass both. like seriously.

&& guess what ?
goood news !
we won NJ :D:D by 15points.
next match against MI !
Come on !
I like the jersey, red with black straps. (:

:)

2009-04-19T22:24:00.004+08:00

went to church today.
it was great. !
all of the sudden when 'i adore' was being sanged during worship,
i felt the presence of God around me. So tangible.

'anyway, your school starting tomorrow right. Study hard k. Be yourself, don't get distracted and influenced easily.'
'thanks for the encouragement. your encouragement so long.'
'haha. thanks for praying for me for my A lvl chem spa. It was great.'
'when i told you i pray for you, i immediately pray a short prayer for you. It really works eh? God like you la.'
'God is really great, it is His people who are the ones who always disappoint Him. I guess i'm one of them.'

Lord, change me. change my heart.
let me not be weary. I feel that i'm walking through the valley of Baca.
Jesus, be the centre of my life.

Okay, need to finish up my work.
i wish time can pass slower, weekends are just too short!
i have not been watching any movie since ___ . i forgot :/
hahaha ! someone or anyone ask me out for a movie soon!
i wanna watch taken and knowing. ahhhhh !

Early night people .
as for you, study hard okay ?
don't forget your dream, your aim and your future.
i still care for you, take care.

2009-04-18T23:36:00.003+08:00

today was quite a fulfilling day (:
firstly, met up with fiona in school and we studied.
thank you so much. you're always there when i needed you.

i had to rush off half-way cause i didn't know R 's tuition end at 4pm.
she was already downstairs my house waiting when i reached. sorry !
Got to my house, my whole family was at home. o m g !
we went dte BK eat together :D
went back to my house and then went jogging at around 750pm.
ohhh, can somebody tell me why do i always have a pain in my stomach whenever i run these days.
I did eat you know ! :/ ohwells.
yeap, and R fell ! o m g . take care.

i just remembered that i ran 4x400m, 4x100m and 100m.
i think i'm really poor in sprinting, perhaps i can only run long-d. & yes, i like it :)
on thurs, saw elisha in school and we somehow talked alittle.
i really need to get back to God. i know i'm drifting away and somehow i feel that He is always there watching over me, not giving up on me.
humans ain't perfect, they do disappoint you, let you down, despise you.
this is probably the chance He is giving me to draw closer to Him.
someone is changing herself to be better, it is just so difficult to prove herself when people around her are blinded.

i found this while going through some blogs.

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God.

i feel fortunate in every way.
I have a great God, lovely family and wonderful friends.
plus having a proper education, what more can i ask for ?

gonna go church tomorrow !
i can wake up, I CAN WAKE UP.
take care :]

2009-04-18T00:19:00.003+08:00

So.. i did get through this week.

It was really a rough week, especially mon to wed.
i think my econs DRQ test will not be that good, or perhaps not even near good.
wed did not have cca, but i was told to be in charge of the J1s.
So it was my first time and i have to make them do PT.
they had to run 3km (not exceeding 20mins, if not they have to run 1 round round the track)
steps, suicide runs plus static hold etc.
:)

glad i recovered from flu, though my voice is still alittle dull.
wasn't suppose to sleep last night, was supposed to study for my chem spa.
Ohwells, i fell asleep as usual.
i had to run this morning with my class people, after which my form teacher will order mac breakfast. In the end, i overslept so i went to sch at 8am and ate the food without exercising.
smart eh. :D i really felt weird la.
it's okay, i'm running tomorrow anyway (:

Chem spa was okay, it was the same as the mock test but just the names of the compounds changed.
ohhhya! i have got blue blacks on my hands again.
It's like there will always be some after volleyball every week.
this time is really painful, ahhhhh. i still think nball better !

i can't wait for tomorrow.

2009-04-11T10:50:00.003+08:00

how do like charges react ?
they repel.

i'm compressing the jealousy i have deep down.
why do you not see the change in me.
i didn't complain or put any pressure on you.
i only have got a request even before sch starts, and you said yes.
but you didn't keep to it.
yet i'm being seen as the one at fault.
your attitude changed. If you don't know, your attitude really turn bad.

hope can go tampines 1 later !
everyone is like telling me i will like it there with all those shops i usually shop in. :)
someone suppose to go with me but overslept. thanks ah.
i wanna take a look at the japanese shop, topshop, dorothy perkins etc etc.

gonna go out now with R.
CYA :D

2009-04-10T14:35:00.003+08:00

YO!
have been going home very late this week.
why. thanks to sports heats.
i just realised i really can't sprint. :/ hahah!

:D ohwells.

went on stage on wed as they wanna announce about the OCBC cycle thing.
nian deng read out my english name which is not even in his script la!
then i confronted him, and he said he is so used to calling me that.
tsktsk, thanks la ! Lol.
my class guys now keep calling me erica. o m g !

And pw results were released yesterday.
it was astonishing, amazing, unbelievable.
our batch really broken the history record of Srjc getting less than 10% A.
68.8 % A, 30% B and 1.2% C. and no D and E or even S.
it's really great!
read someone's blog and yes i agree with her.
it's really irritating and sad if you don't belong to the majority group but instead you're in the minority group.

Though i have gotten a B, i know i've tried my best along with my team-mates.
sometimes it may just be because of the teacher who's assisting you in this project.
i still remembered, my pw teacher has never hear me or my team-members present our OP.
she just looked and help us with the slides.
i'm satisfied with this grade, and i thank God for it (: at least i know i've secured a B.
thank you Jesus, and it's good Friday too!
Have a blessed day everyone :)

S is sick. awww!
please take care of yourself.
sleep early boy :]
you know i miss you so.

2009-04-05T00:23:00.004+08:00

Went to sch today for GP.
Then went to my bro's SISPEC/OCS camp.
it was rather cool , cool in the sense that most of my brother's room-mates are from JC and they look nerdy. :/ hahaha!
one of his friends was from RJ, just got his A lvl results last month and got 8 As.
it's amazing, but it's also amazing that there's a guy from my own sch who got the same no. of As as him who's from RJ. So yeah, SR also can make it okay ! :D

after which, went jurong point for some shopping!
bought a shirt plus a sports bra. very happy cause i got the same design, same brand but just another colour for just 31 bucks! o m g !
Bro got a bag and it's nice. i'd wish to bring it to sch one day :)
Went to cut my hair and a temporary rebond.
it's pretty short now (to me). still can tie bah.

i miss you badly.
i'm sad/disappointed/everything. do you know ?
no.

2009-03-29T00:45:00.004+08:00

Coach

Ralph Lauren.

So nice right? but you don't wanna know how much they each cost.
was surfing the net on Victoria Secret, Ralph Lauren, LV, Marc Jacob, Coach etc.
the stuffs are efffffffff-ing cool :) i really like the things above. Man!

Went to S 's house just now, watched 2 movies. Both are incredibly ___. no comments.
hahahahhaha! watched together with S and rach + cheryl. we covered each other's eyes at some parts. loL. then we camwhored, it was retarded yet fun, toook alot of pictures. Like alot!
Then cheryl made nutella rice ball, o m g ! rather nice (: perhaps cause i like chocolates.

for you i will.

It's going to be the end of weekends. Time really pass so quickly :/
may sunday which is soon, pass as slow as possible ! :D

NIGHTS.

2009-03-27T22:50:00.004+08:00

these photos are rather long ago. During 1S03 bbq in january.

This whole week has been fun yet tiring!
Had captain's ball lead-up games of Sr Olympics on tues.
in the end got 4th after competing with quite a few teams. We wanted 3rd! oh wells, it doesn't really matter as the whole team was my classmates so we sort of bonded :D
BOBBY team rocks !
we played all the way to 845pm, superrr late! by the time i reached home, i was too tired to do anything la ! D:
&& my yesterday was fully packed. School ended at 9pm! and it's going to be like this for every thursday! Honestly, when i reached home, i didn't touch any of my work. :/

I'm so so glad that it's friday already ! :) plus i didn't have to go for netball.
Met S and we went to douby ghaut cathay to watch ConfessionShopaholic. Not bad, still recommended. haha!
wanted to eat Astons after that but the queue was damn long so ate somewhere else.
ohhh! i still don't believe S that my vday's present from him was only 20bucks!
boo-hoo.

Anyway, i thank God for giving me strength to pull through this whole week.
Though i feel that my results are poor, I still thank Him as He is the one who gave me hope to see every new day and blessing me with a proper education. Praise you Jesus :)

love you.
3! + 3.

2009-03-22T23:53:00.004+08:00

I just feel that this march holiday is not enough.
I thought that it was not well-spent.
i want it to be longer, just alittle longer will do.
went for a 5km jog with bro on thurs at 1130pm. i know it's crazy but i really like it :) breezy and cool.
helped my mum vacuum the house on sat.
played captain's ball, watch movies, ate restaurants almost the whole week!
i'm such a fortunate girl i know (:

had a really bad morning on sat between S and I
it lasted for 1hour or so. no quarreling, just serious heart to heart talk.
while sobbing, i realised how important he is to me, not that i'm a sticky sort cause i've changed okay !
i've also found out that it's so important that both parties are willing to compromise, change to suit one another better.
i'm gonna learn if he is willing to teach me :D
i'm gonna read more too to keep up with the amount he is reading. It's eye-opening. :D

sorry S ):

Went to his house to watch gossip girls and valkyrie.
GG's eps are releasing later and later. i can't wait !
and valkyrie is not that bad, recapping of my history on adolf hitler. aha.
after which i did my chemistry okay, don't think i only play.
i studied too, while he offered to help me create dividers for my notebook. thanks love.
S 's dad cooked unagi and kangkong for dinner today, didn't manage to eat them but they are nice enough to keep some for me.

me: anyway b, i staying back in sch to study for 1hr30mins before i go to your house k ?
S: orhh okay
S: sure =]
S: just make it in time for dinner
me: okay (:

haha, he doesn't want me to miss eating the unagi the second time.
thanks for updating the blog, it was really unexpected. i love you.

well, school's starting tomorrow.
pray that God help me pull through this week. Philippians 4:13.

ciaos.

2009-03-21T00:21:00.003+08:00

netball camp.

for more, check out my FB!
ohhh, I GOT A FB ACC like at last! :D that's what people told me.
whatever, i know i'm slow la.
better still, this account is NOT created by me :D:D i was tooo lazy to make one.
HAHAHAHA.
went out for lunch at SG yesterday with S 's family. :)
they have been great. yippie !
well, after which went to meet the girls at cineleisure for a movie - Hotel for Dogs.
it was great man ! it's really amazing what technologies can do for dogs.
walked around for hours and at last settled at Canelle for dinner.
enjoyed my time with them, hopefully able to see them soon :]

it's ironic how i do things and the way i am sometimes.
i'm rather impatient.
i don't like waiting for people but yet i expect people to wait for me.
i don't like waiting for a darn sms for so long but yet i give late replies to people.
i hate people talking too much/too loud when at times i'm also doing that.

i need to change.
ohman. yes, don't think i'm just talking but no action eh.
i'm becoming more punctual for appointments. Ha!
i just need alittle bit more of time to change for the better.

ohyes, and i went shopping today.
went shop to shop, in the end i only got myself 2 things !
this is absurd and pathetic! shrieks.

Gonna have a captain's ball match again, and it's tomorrow!
hopefully we will play much better than the previous match.
CIAOS.

2009-03-17T21:07:00.005+08:00

possessive, obsessive ?
these things don't bother last time.
but now, things changed.
it's serious this time, washing my hands of things.
different way of things, different perspective of things, it's different.

Screwed up, fuck up.

looking at blogs, checking up friendster are what i do when i'm surfing the net.
this is all i do.
i may be so engrossed at times whenever i get a chance to hook on to the computer.
i don't play online games.
guess what i wish for now?
a secret note/paragraph which won't leave me waiting yet is so unexpected.
a call which come to say 2 words.
a smile which will leave me smiling before sleeping.

just had principal rally yesterday.
we had to fill up some stuffs which will be posted back to us a few months later.
it's just 3 simple questions, but they left me reflecting on some things which i didn't even believe i will think of.
i cried as i pen my thoughts down.

i feel like running alot tomorrow.

2009-03-12T23:41:00.004+08:00

Common Test is over ! :D
Have not been sleeping well, full of work to complete.
yesterday was the last paper, then off to dhoby ghaut with huiling joan and ona.
watched slumdog millionaire which i watched 1 week before CT started la.
but i didn't know, guess i wasn't in the right state of mind.
before that went Astons for lunch followed by b&j's!
we know how to enjoy life, don't we ? :)
not to forget, we cam-whored ALOT ! HAHA.

Anyway, guess what happened?
i received an email 1-2 weeks after the OCBC cycle 40km challenge that my team won 1st in our catagory. something like Women's tertiary catagory.
We had to collect our prize and it was last tuesday at 630pm.
It was rather weird cause when we got to the place, we thought we had the wrong one.
It was at a PUB ! Lol.
so embarrassing. being in school-uniform at such a place.
anyway, we got on the mini stage and had to hold up the prize (shirt + soap, lotions etc) while they took pictures.
:)

Went to cineleisure today and caught He's not that into you.
it was so-so to me, but S was enjoying the movie. He's practically laughing throughout the movie, until i have to nudge him.
well, he has been laughing at me for the past few days.
especially yesterday.

S: what movie you watching with them?
M: not sure, slumdog millionaire i think.
S: you don't mind watching it the 2nd time? i thought you mind. (something like that)
M: huh? i don't get you? ...
S: you watched it already
M: Serious? Ha. really meh? what is it about?
S: the one about who wants to be a millionaire
M: OHHH! o m g , i forgot! aiyah, nevermind.

LOL. wahlao! and then he went laughing at me. tsktsk.
ohwells. i still owe him 2 presents! :/
thanks for today. love.

Having 1hr 30mins of sch tomorrow then i will go to my bro's camp area.
going now, ciaos!

BYE.

2009-03-01T11:06:00.002+08:00

oh yay.

i survived last week. or should i just say thurs and friday? :D
I've got 5stations napfa and physics Alvl spa on thurs.
It was great :D cause after 3-4yrs of napfa since sec 3/4, i finally can get my gold.
you know why? thanks to my standing broad jump. I've always gotten below 165. pathetic isn't it? But for my napfa last thurs, i could jump 173! 1 7 3 !
okay, everyone reading my blog will go like chey. but it's really a big deal to me. seriously a C is good enough, :)
Then the next day, friday. There's 2.4 napfa early in the morning at 7am, it was great too. The sky was still dark, the cool breeze was comforting. And i could run 7s faster. guess my timing then.
After which, i have got chem lecture test in the afternoon. It was annoying cause i wasted alot of time on the 1st question. hope i could pass !

wanna go do my work now, update again soon.

take care of yourself.
always there.

2009-02-21T21:48:00.007+08:00

Happy couple (: pretty cousin!

These are only some of the pictures.
will upload more next time.
I enjoyed being a bridesmaid on vday.
Will be doing it again next year i think?

not to forget,
thanks for all the gifts :)
S (those lovely brownies)
ona (famous amos cookie stick+pink rose)
fiona (sweets+chocolates nicely packed)
valerie (2 toblerone chocolates)
adam (a bar of toblerone)

very sweet people while i'm not!
cause i didn't prepare anything :/
sorrry!

Well, tomorrow is the day!
Can't wait, wondering what type of bike they're lending me.
Hope it's good. & guess what? I haven't found a cycling tights yet.
I will just wear my fbt shorts if mum can't find bro's one.
Dare not wear his la! wah lao, not because it's awkward. BUT that stupid elastic thing cost 150 bucks! i scared i cycle half-way tear! HAHA.
damn, why is his thing all so expensive. Make me feel so insecure using his stuffs.
ohwells, yay! i can't wait for tomorrow. hidden agenda.

charlene somehow made my day just now.
she said something out of a blue and that just made me smile.
it was really random cause we wouldn't talking about anything that relates to that.
And she sent me alot of songs. thanks girl (:

i was really happy seeing you though it's just a minute.
give me more than those words.

2009-02-21T01:09:00.004+08:00

Got to school early today! it's like not every friday i will be in school this early.
So yeah, my dad drove me. happy me :)
Well, friday is here at last! i'm able to rest more and enjoy more. More importantly, catch up with my work! D: i need time, especially physics.

After nball, went with odac people plus ona, huiling and joan to collect our race packs (:
it was at the F1 pit which is beneath the S'pore Flyer.
Took us damn long to get there, plus our heavy bags and tired legs.
the shirt is nice, got the right size. i'm glad :]
& ona remembered me of something.

She asked something like is it fun sitting on the Singapore flyer.
i just replied: " errr, i haven sit on it yet. "
She answered: " huh, i thought you have sat, you were like telling me you're going for it. "
I just felt sad cause i didn't go on it in the end.
ohwells.

After which, went popeye's! It was already 930pm la!
having gwen, wanru, darrylchia and junqiang, ona, huiling, joan.
we ate and chatted quite alot. It was really a weird combination of people, but we had fun :D
Hopped into the taxi. joan and huiling alighted first then stopped at my house before darryl went home. Didn't know we stay quite near each other. hohoho.

how do i spend this weekend.
i think i can't do much though. Having OCBC cycling on sun, excited yet afraid it will be tough.
okay, i will just enjoy! :D:D hahahah, exceed 3 hrs will just cause us to get toll away!
LOL. :/ i shall not embarrass myself, so i'll try cycling faster.

I'm dead beat. goodnight :)

You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
And I can't lie
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just can't take it
i miss you. do you feel it?

2009-02-16T22:24:00.003+08:00

my skin is getting worst, i don't know how.
sigh! there are red patches all over. it's itchy.
somehow i wish i don't have dry skin especially on my legs.
it's really horrible, unbearable. seriously. i need help.

how? will lotion help? sometimes i wonder.

my mood is way low.
exams are round the corner. chem, phy, math, econs, gp.
i feel i'm not doing enough, it's time to bring the whole load of hope and wishes into action.
stop idling around and just wishing for a miracle to happen, it won't happen.

Will update more next time. on vday being a bridesmaid. :)

I'll be there for you.

2009-02-12T22:45:00.004+08:00

JC1 orientation has just ended. i thought that it was pretty long :/
my class people really missing quite abit, wondering how are they catching up. like seriously.
school work has been quite okay, just physics and econs giving me a headache.
need to think alot, ohh and not to forget GP ! My tests are all messed up, i don't know how. hopefully my phy lect test 2 will be good. hopefully.
For nball, don't think i will be in the school team. pretty disappointed but expected things will turn out this way. Had training right after Pe today till 820pm, exhaustion is the word.

Gonna spend vday being a bridesmaid. feeling excited.
But can't spend the day with S. Yet he still gave me an early vday present.
It was unexpected and i was really surprised. with those miny heart-shaped brownies.
love you.

Went cycling last week and the week before, 22km and 40km respectively.
It was fun cycling with the girls and S. i felt satisfied being able to have some time with them separately. :)
next week will be the challenge. i want to finish it and finish it within the time limit!
yeah, yay.
ohya, my wound is healing. thanks to my dear mum who always pray for my wound first before helping me clean it and apply lotion :] how sweeet, best mum ever right ? :D

Yeap, thank God for giving me strength to pull through this long and tiring week. Also, for placing wonderful people around me. my family, S and friends.

nights.